My name is Gina
I live in West Florida
I am 50 Years Old Female
I have two grown children - My oldest Daughter is out of the house and on her own and My Son lives with us in his half of the house (large Ranch) with his now wife and their two daughters
I am a Grandmother to two beautiful girls ages 5 and 18 months which I watch
I am married to a wonderful Husband Mike and
I am a Gamleholic. . . . .

Wow what a Bio huh!

I have been trying to go back and figure out when Gambleing became so addictive - I mean I always loved playing scratch offs and daily lotto's, Mike and I went out on the Gambleming boats once here is Florida on a monthly basis for a date night but somewhere going with $100 dollars turn into $500 then $1000, and almost twice a week to The Casino.

Looking at the Gamblers Anonymous Web site I realized wow I answered yes to alot of the questions, though I do not agree with some of the questions, I do see myself in them. Just recently I think I crossed the line with the Bill money, I have NEVER used the bill money to fund my Gambleing - See part of me does not feel like I have a problem I just like to get away from the stress and think of nothing else but having fun, BUT according to the web site and my family I seem to have a problem and I guess thinking well there is more money coming in so why not touch the Bill money was wrong, very wrong.

My husband of now 29 years goes with me and spends the money right along with me, Even allowing me to use the Debit Card to take just alittle more money, Then gives me a 45 minute sermon on the way home on how much we wasted at the Devils Lair as he calls it. But really never says no we need to leave , Because the truth is he has just as much fun going as I do.

What I always try and remind myself is that feeling of loosing and the quiet drive on the way home, that we both do thinking about what bad people we are and my husband thinking about what he could have done with the money lost. Sometimes I block it out and just think of the next day, Other times I drone on what we did so by the time I reach home my stomach feels like throwing up. Then there are other times when we win $500, $1000 or even $5000 that makes it ok to go.

Our new Romp is Biloxi, MS. I am not sure how it happened really I am not sure BUT we are on their VIP list and get fully comped trips with Freeplay, Food and Rooms monthly. We are treated to Limo service and endless Promotions, We aren't high rollers, We are middle of the road scrape the last dime out of our Checking accounts and go type of people. We have money for the first 2 days of the four day weekend trip and then write checks to get us through and then pray we can cover them if we get back without winning. But I love to go and love getting away from all the stress again until we come home.

I think of the Gambers Anonymous Web Site as I sit here typing and I guess I have a little bit more to go until I can stomach a 12 step program. You have to do alot of praying to God or a higher power for strenght Gosh I do that already, You have to admit you have a problem Gambleing and I do, and you have to want to stop, See thats where the problem comes in, I love to gamble, I love the slots, I love to Win and as long as the Electric is on and the Bills are paid and the Rent is paid I do not see a problem. I guess I have a long way to go. . . . . .

I will write again soon.
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